And just like that, it's July. We're halfway through the year. Oh God! Why does time fly so fast? So, where did the time go? Did I do anything meaningful in the past six months? Or did I just waste it through overthinking? How much time do I waste just by overthinking?
This is me right now. Overthinking. Staring at space most of the day. Thinking about what I've missed. Regretting so many wasted opportunities. Wishing I were another person, living a different life.
But I am ultra busy every day. My day as a content creator is spent researching topics for my next content, reading sources, writing, editing, and checking the authenticity of my sources before sharing the post. I don't want to feed my followers with disinformation and fake news.
Still, in between research and reading, writing and editing, my thoughts are elsewhere. Obsessing on the idea of "what if I am a different person", "what if I meet this person", "what if I am living a different life". I don't know what it is, but it feels like my brain is rammed up with the idea of creating an alternative persona deep within me.
Am I starting to feel helpless and pitiful?
Someone says, "At times, people are stuck in a situation of worrying and being caught up in their own thoughts. because of the burden of life, of living, of wishing things could have been different. Sometimes it's habitual, sometimes it's unintentional.
Maybe I need a long vacation somewhere. A mindful pause. An escape. A different diversion. To clear off my thoughts and my foggy brain, and free my mind from anxiety and overthinking.
As Catherine says in her blog, The Blissful Mind, "There’s a whole world happening around us, but we don’t even notice it because we’re stuck in the habitual mind. Sometimes we need a perspective shift to help us see that there are other possibilities we’re not even aware of yet".
And then she recommended the "Power of a pause" to create gaps between our habitual tendencies. A gap, she said, is a mindful pause in your day to just breathe.
Just breathe and disconnect myself from what keeps me anxious. I am planning to go on a trip soon. Maybe it's really time to embrace solo traveling, because if I keep waiting for people to accompany me on a trip, it won't happen.
I need to change my perspective, I need a change of atmosphere, and a change of environment, and views to reinvigorate life.
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